Prayer.. why do we over-spiritualize it?

Why do we try to sound so “spiritual” and “religious” when we pray? I was very intimidated as a new believer when I heard people pray out loud. I thought I would have to take a class or find a book somewhere on how it was supposed to be done. The same people who prayed so eloquently are the ones who told me I need this intimate, personal relationship with Jesus! Well? How was I supposed to have a relationship like that if I have to speak in a manner that just wasn’t “ME”? 

Picture THIS! Your having a conversation with your Spouse or the most significant person in your life. And that person begins speaking very rehearsed and saying some of the same things they have heard others say, being very redundant and repetitive. Suddenly you would feel that your conversation was very impersonal! It would probably become very awkward. Now imagine that that same person never pauses to give you a chance to speak. They simply just keep making requests and going from one subject to the next. Doesn’t sound like a very intimate personal conversation to me. How about you? 

We are just people… human. We are missing the point of what prayer is and is not. Its a conversation between two individuals! Come to HIM, “as you are”, being who he created you to be.  You can’t fool God.  He knows who he created you to be and how he wired you! So, why try to impress him or come to him with all the religious Jib-Jab! Why not just talk to him just like you would your BFF? Why give a mere human that authenticity and not give it to your HOLY DADDY?  

I’m not trying to be irreverent or disrespectful towards God in all his glory and magisty! Yes, he is the Lord of lords and the King of kings. He’s so amazing that I could not look upon him with my human eyes. But in prayer, I come to him one on one, in the most intimate manner, and with the most precious and delicate topics. My prayers are often times filled with questions as well as request.  Often times I am talking to him randomly just as if he were on the other end of a phone conversation. I talk to him about the most  minute topics; such as what I’m going to wear to work that day, helping me eat better, and asking him to make that light turn green when I’m running late for work. In the midst of these topics I’m also discussing the state of my marriage, the health of my children, sickness of others and the madness in world around me! All the while, it’s not “here to”, “therefor”, “at the next appointed hour”, etc!  Now if that’s how you talk and that is your personality, have at it! And you will be blessed for doing so! But, it’s just not mine. I have found an incredible sense of closeness with my Jesus being just who he created me to be! I have a sense of humor and I share it with the Lord. I challenge you to consider sharing your true personality with the Lord. The very next time you pray, maybe it’s when you put this blog down, start a conversation with the man upstairs just being “YOU”! After all, it’s not something you’re hiding from him! He was the one that created you! 

James 4: 8-10 “Come close to God, and God will come close to you. Wash your hands, you sinners; purify your hearts, for your loyalty is divided between God and the world. Let there be tears for what you have done. Let there be sorrow and deep grief. Let there be sadness instead of laughter, and gloom instead of joy. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up in honor.”




All twisted up inside??..Umm hmm. Me too!

Have you ever been in so much pain that your stomach just feels sick! One minute it’s not even on my mind, and then the next….in the blink of an eye, I feel part of my stomach flip right upside down, and there it is… The pain staring me in the face, and it’s got me by the throat! Pain has a way of twisting us up inside of making us do the unthinkable. It rears its head without prior notice. I do my best to stuff it down, swallow just a little more each day so that I can make it without a breakdown. Fake it till you make it, right? The secrets we keep have a way of bellowing its way to the surface.  Be careful with this! It’s a dangerous walk on a tight rope of life! All it takes is one distraction….and you slip, twisting and turning, spiraling in the most ungraceful fall! The enemy loves this environment… he lurks in the shadows watching and reveling in your spiritual clumsiness. He seeks to confuse and cloud your perspective, wanting you to only focus on your pain so that it’s all you see!

What causes this depth of pain and suffering…? Love!!… duh!. If you didn’t love prior to the pain then how can you be hurt? Ouch..Love always leaves a mark. When all we see is pain and the scares, we lose sight of God.  Boy that makes the Enemy really happy! Don’t lose sight of Jesus! Keep your mind’s eye fixed on Him when that pain takes hold in that paralyzing death grip.

Many of you know the story of Jesus walking on water. Just as Peter was walking out on the water after being called out by the Son of God, he started to turn his eyes to the storm raging around him. I can see in my mind the enemy lurking in the waves nearby, whispering doubt, fear and disaster into Peter’s ears! Now… indulge me! Picture yourself as Peter… and the storm of your personal life ragging around you. Can you hear Satan’s relentless reminders of your worthlessness and regret? Making you doubt your ability to walk on the water with obedient faith.  He’s a stinker isn’t he?? Little rascal….. He can be right there to make us doubt and begin to sink!  So, I’m trusting that you closed your eyes and pictured yourself right there in the chaos and misery! Now….Matthew 14:13 says, “Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him.’You have so little faith’, he said ‘why did you doubt me’?” When Peter turned his eyes back on our Lord, he immediately rose back above the water and the Enemy fled at the sound of the amazing voice of my sweet Jesus! Did you feel the Lord reach out and grab hold?? Yes. The storm is still raging, but you won’t sink! It really is that simple! Just keep your eyes on Him! I promise it was YOU who let go, not Jesus!

Just as Jesus had compassion for the blind, He has compassion and mercy for you and I. You and I may feel spiritually “blind” in our storm. All we need to do is ask for sight. Let him lift his hand to our eyes, touch us, and heal our ability to see the path before us. Matthew 20:34 – “Jesus had compassion on them and touched their eyes. Immediately they received their sight and followed him.” NOTE the last three words. “And followed Him.” If we don’t follow Jesus after he opens our eyes, we will continue to be “blind”. Trust Him. Follow Him.

Deuteronomy 31:8 – “The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” So, there you have it! I will FOLLOW and let the Lord lift me out of the raging water of my pain. Keep my mind’s eye on Him! I won’t let go! And I’ll Follow! I’ll leave the rest to the Creator of the Cosmos!



Be Brave….

Joshua 1:9 – Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous.  Do not be afraid; Do not be discouraged.  For the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.

A few weeks ago I made some very important changes in my life. Now, if you know me you may not have looked and noticed anything specific about my physical appearance because all of these changes were absolutely internal. You see, me and Jesus, we got something straight! He told me it was all going to be OK! Yes, even in my broken mess, I’m going to be OK and I’m enough! I was on a women’s retreat with my church. We had been allotted some alone time with the Lord to reflect on “why” individually God had brought us there. And so, I set out on a slow walk to find a quiet place to reflect on whatever had brought me there.

Man, I was in such a bad place! I hated everything: My husband, being married, I hated my job, being busy all the time and never having any time for myself. I hated that I wasn’t perfect, and I couldn’t do everything that others expected of me! I was trying so hard to please everyone around me. Especially myself! I got lost in all of that! So lost that I forgot the ONE I was supposed to be striving to please! JESUS, my sweet Jesus!

And all of my rage, frustration, and depression I was feeling overwhelmed and incapable. A constant failure every day, never measuring up to the standard that others, along with myself had set as acceptable! I needed to be the perfect wife, good enough to attract the perfect husband! I needed to be the perfect mom, good enough for my kids to obey all of my rules and do all of their chores without being reminded! I needed to be lovable, enough that my stepchildren can see me for who I think I am, and not the bad guy! I mean?? If I was lovable, good enough, and respected then they would do all of that unprompted, right? Yeah it was all pretty much crashing down on me! I felt the walls of my world caving in slowly and the oxygen from the air I struggled to breathe thinning! Spiritually I was suffocating. I was looking to my husband, my children, stepchildren, anyone to get the spiritual air that I needed to survive!

And so, as I walked looking for that perfect little garden, the sweet little spot in the nice green grass, or pretty waterfall to sit beside in the mountains, I just couldn’t find rest until I came a bench across from an old dilapidated building surrounded by caution tape and big orange traffic cones, and signs that said condemned. As I finally plopped down on that bench feeling frustrated that all the pretty little spots were taken, I found a breath! Oh my sweet Jesus! It was your breath in my lungs! In just that quiet time and reflection with an open Bible, he met me there! I felt him show me that even though my life seemed to be surrounded and caution tape, and was not fit to be trodden upon, it had promise! The promise to be rebuilt! New, stronger, and better! I literally began to laugh out loud! I felt the rage and the frustration flow from my soul. I felt that peace that I’ve always longed for! Yeah you know the one that in the Bible verse that says, “Peace which passes all understanding”! That’s the one! I found it there on my little dilapidated bench and dangerous construction site. I stood and casually walked alongside my Jesus back to the meeting room. It was time to “Be Brave!”

For over a year I have felt a calling to share my thoughts and my experiences with other women. And for the past year I have run from that calling! No, my life is still not perfect, my husband and my children, my marriage, nothing is perfect. In fact it’s still a hot mess, but that PEACE! Man it sure does pass anything I’m able to understand. And I find it every day when I spend time with Jesus. From the day of that retreat until the day I started this blog I have been belly up to the table!! “The King and his Daughter – party of two!! Well…. now that you’re here, it’s the king and his daughter….and YOU – party of three! Feast on PEACE! Bon appétit!




Your DADDY wants to talk to you…

Do you wonder if God speaks to us? If he REALLY “speaks” to YOU!? YES HE DOES….listen with the ears of your heart as you READ GODS WORD! Ok…. now half of y’all just closed my post or scrolled on past!! 

I know…I know… “I’m too busy”. “I’m too tired”. “The Bible is boring!” “I don’t like to read!” All of these are excuses that I gave myself! My infamous one, “By the time I remember, I am in the bed and I am way too tired!” If you just said any of those things…. then…truth is…your not listening to Him anyway. Why would He talk to you? Is He not worth it to you?  

Do you not long for His help? Do you not cry out at times for His guidance and wonder where He is? It takes 5 min or less…. if you don’t have 5 minutes for the Creator of EVERYTHING, then you don’t deserve to hear HIM in the first place. (sorry, Not sorry) Pic up your Bible y’all! Or get a “Bible App” And LISTEN to your Holy Daddy in the small voice that rises up in your soul! He speaks life!
It’s so easy! It really is! And….WOW does it feel good to do it. Think of the things you “find time” to read and do. Try to find time this week to read just a few verses! Some how? Some way? After you have read just a few sentences see it, be still, wait, and listen….. for that small voice that rises up in you! Sweet “Reader of my blog”….you just met my friend Jesus!

Romans 10:18 – But I ask: Did they not hear? Of course they did: “Their voice has gone out into all the earth, their words to the ends of the world.” (we’re talking about the Bible here) 

And so the journey begins….


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Hello!  My name is Penny and I am just like you! Normal…Nothing supernatural, nor am I a “profit” or anything remotely similar.  (The fact that I just laughed out loud at that statement should help you understand what I am “Not”.)  So Please!  Do not expect much other than a kindred soul, who loves her Holy Daddy and curls up on his lap occasionally to feel just how tiny, yet so significant I am to HIM! I will not debate with you about the existence of what I KNOW is REAL.  I will leave that to the ones who are called to do so… (If you need a referral, let me know! Ha ha ha!)

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