All twisted up inside??..Umm hmm. Me too!

Have you ever been in so much pain that your stomach just feels sick! One minute it’s not even on my mind, and then the next….in the blink of an eye, I feel part of my stomach flip right upside down, and there it is… The pain staring me in the face, and it’s got me by the throat! Pain has a way of twisting us up inside of making us do the unthinkable. It rears its head without prior notice. I do my best to stuff it down, swallow just a little more each day so that I can make it without a breakdown. Fake it till you make it, right? The secrets we keep have a way of bellowing its way to the surface.  Be careful with this! It’s a dangerous walk on a tight rope of life! All it takes is one distraction….and you slip, twisting and turning, spiraling in the most ungraceful fall! The enemy loves this environment… he lurks in the shadows watching and reveling in your spiritual clumsiness. He seeks to confuse and cloud your perspective, wanting you to only focus on your pain so that it’s all you see!

What causes this depth of pain and suffering…? Love!!… duh!. If you didn’t love prior to the pain then how can you be hurt? Ouch..Love always leaves a mark. When all we see is pain and the scares, we lose sight of God.  Boy that makes the Enemy really happy! Don’t lose sight of Jesus! Keep your mind’s eye fixed on Him when that pain takes hold in that paralyzing death grip.

Many of you know the story of Jesus walking on water. Just as Peter was walking out on the water after being called out by the Son of God, he started to turn his eyes to the storm raging around him. I can see in my mind the enemy lurking in the waves nearby, whispering doubt, fear and disaster into Peter’s ears! Now… indulge me! Picture yourself as Peter… and the storm of your personal life ragging around you. Can you hear Satan’s relentless reminders of your worthlessness and regret? Making you doubt your ability to walk on the water with obedient faith.  He’s a stinker isn’t he?? Little rascal….. He can be right there to make us doubt and begin to sink!  So, I’m trusting that you closed your eyes and pictured yourself right there in the chaos and misery! Now….Matthew 14:13 says, “Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him.’You have so little faith’, he said ‘why did you doubt me’?” When Peter turned his eyes back on our Lord, he immediately rose back above the water and the Enemy fled at the sound of the amazing voice of my sweet Jesus! Did you feel the Lord reach out and grab hold?? Yes. The storm is still raging, but you won’t sink! It really is that simple! Just keep your eyes on Him! I promise it was YOU who let go, not Jesus!

Just as Jesus had compassion for the blind, He has compassion and mercy for you and I. You and I may feel spiritually “blind” in our storm. All we need to do is ask for sight. Let him lift his hand to our eyes, touch us, and heal our ability to see the path before us. Matthew 20:34 – “Jesus had compassion on them and touched their eyes. Immediately they received their sight and followed him.” NOTE the last three words. “And followed Him.” If we don’t follow Jesus after he opens our eyes, we will continue to be “blind”. Trust Him. Follow Him.

Deuteronomy 31:8 – “The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” So, there you have it! I will FOLLOW and let the Lord lift me out of the raging water of my pain. Keep my mind’s eye on Him! I won’t let go! And I’ll Follow! I’ll leave the rest to the Creator of the Cosmos!




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